As the chilling winter winds gained pace, everything around
me seemed to move slower than ever. Ironically a drop in temperature resulted
in the drop in my energy, drop in motivation, a drop in professional interests
and unfortunately the drop has been on for quite a while now. Going lower and
lower and lower and draining every ounce of energy in me, writing this piece of
work seemed like a humongous task! It is almost impossible to explain the
rapport I have built with the warmest corner of my house. As weird as it
sounds, it seems like I now have an inseparable bond with blankets and hoodies.
Chai has never tasted so heavenly and warm water has never travelled down my
throat with such vigor and passion.
Keeping aside the physical aspect of the most dreaded winter
season, the last three months have been quite an interesting time for me. Back from Goa after an overtly enthusiastic
trip that did not very well reach the high expectations I built, gave me some
memories that will undoubtedly last for a life time and an extended family that
I always wish to have beside me. One
late evening at the beach, wind blowing through your hair and sand creeping
into your shoes, the aroma of Maggi that slightly arouses your sensory organs
and the freezing water that laps slowly at your feet coming back and forth each
time with the same renewed energy, nothing beats this silence at the bay of the
never ending sea. That’s what nature does to you. The perspective and the
clarity you gain is just undeniable. It is rightly said, “Travel to know
yourself”. Being away from family was a tad bit strange to me, with the absence
of familiar faces each morning and my mom’s beaming smile at the break of dawn
each day made me realize that they were the major part of joy that made my day
a so called happy one!
Meanwhile, amidst this high, of course the clock wouldn’t stop ticking. Three months from now, I would be done with my under graduation program. Yes, it did hit me late, but I had to begin my quest for a college to finish my PG. Now, that meant something that is going to shift me from my comfort zone. Three years with a certain crowd and three years with the best friends I could’ve asked for, I just couldn’t fathom the need to now look for a new clique that requires building bonds from scratch. Those who know me, also know that it is just out of my ability to be friends with everyone, I as a person is very choosy in everything I do, and in the act of making new friends, I couldn’t be more fussy! But of course, there was no eluding this process. I had to look for colleges, apply for colleges, write entrance examinations and dread the fact that I have to move away from friends and family. To be honest, I am looking forward to this new phase of life but not with as much exuberance as I generally reflect. At this eleventh hour, one thing I can still pray for is a brand new set of amazing friends in an amazing college.
Life is totally unpredictable, and with this settling feeling of unawareness of the future, if there is anything I learnt, then it is the need to
Delve deep into your heart, as deep as poetry, Tangle your
veins into calligraphy
Appreciate the synchrony of your breathing, ‘coz it’s all
for one strong reason!
As a part of this enlightenment I recently gained, things
did seem a little better, a little clearer and a little brighter! Consistency
has never really been a friend to me, and I just hope this time it sticks
around with me.
One month from now I
have huge deadlines to meet, an exam to
take up, an event to prepare for and so many other things on so many other
levels. Unlike each time, I decided not to fret over it this time. Maybe
keeping me busy for the next two months is a part of a bigger plan that I now
can’t comprehend!
Less than a month for a new year to begin, less than a month
for a list of new resolutions that deep in my heart I know I won’t follow, less
than a month to make new promises and less than a month to let go of 2016. And
I can very comfortably say I am least prepared!
Like every other year, at 12 in the night, I shall begin the countdown
and accept the unity in
cluelessness, for this year I resolve to be sudden, to
be unexpected and to make impromptu decisions, because I am sure nothing beats
the joy of an unplanned success! 